Exquisite Dreamer

Revenge?!

2011-01-10T16:16:00.000+08:00

what is this?
revenge?
what am i thinking?

i feel as thou i'm sinking deeper. so what i did what i've done? i'm not any happier.

perhaps i should look at it optimistically. perhaps i should put 100% trust in the relationship. perhaps i should stop whatever shit im doing. but im so afraid. afraid that there might be another time. afraid he would left me falling alone. afraid he would leave my heart shattered again.

Mistakes

2011-01-10T00:05:00.001+08:00

you can never make a same mistake twice.
the first might be a mistake.
but the second is definitely a choice.

updates..

2007-07-29T15:46:00.000+08:00

27-07-2007

went out with CRES-R after work today. =)
eully asked me to decide the place and said she dun mind coming over to the west.
so i decide we should go Jurong Point. XD
poor eully. gotta travel so far to come n meet us.
evil me. wahahaha.

p.s. wanna congrat ahCi! for the 2 "surprise" news u told us. =)
and congrat eully! and wish ya all the best!~

28-07-2007

late for dance. and so couldn't catch up with them.
and the steps are so fast. =/
so dance wasn't that fun today.

p.s. sorrie eully. i'll try not to be late next week. =p

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dearie kena food poisonin.
and was seriously dehydrated. =(
worried...

POTATOES!~

2007-07-29T15:40:00.000+08:00

woot~ wahzi so clever!~
answer ish POTATO lo.

cuz mummy bought le den no time to cook.
so all these buds grow.
and awww. wad a WASTE.
potato's so yummy lo. =/

sick..............

2007-07-23T21:07:00.000+08:00

sick sick sick again.
bahz!!
sick until im abit irritated le!

having diarrhea a few times in the middle of the night.
even vomited.
just feeling so unwell that i decided not to go work again.
3 MCs in less than 3 month.
i wonder how my bosses gonna think about me.
lazy bum always faking sick. oO
lol. im thinkin too much again ba.

and the dance lesson..
3 lessons i missed 2 of them. =/
so shitty!!

Guess wad ish this??

2007-07-23T21:00:00.000+08:00

wahaha. guess wad ish this??
will let ya all know the answer soon~

Sick AGAIN....

2007-07-08T19:35:00.000+08:00

argh. my cold came back to me again. zZz
runnin nose, muscle ache, sneezin whole day.
TIRED.

and cuz of this stupid cold.
I've missed my dance lesson.
sorrie eully. =/

supper with CRES.

2007-06-24T12:12:00.000+08:00

met up with CRES for supper ytd.
went all the way to Jalan Kayu to eat prata. ^^

meeting up with CRES ish always fun.
with all gossipin and updatin of our own life.
but it always somehow,
made me feel that i'm very lousy.

things like.
ahCi can become the management/planning person.
ahBe can become the designer.
ahEu can start a biz with handmade stuffs.
den ahSze.. admin!

ahhaha. althou mebbie it seems nth 2 u all.
but this really made me feel extremely lousy.
mebbie im just being sensitive ba...

anyways just for ur info.
admin is just a job which i do
for the sake of earnin allowance
and helpin out my family.
and its just a temp job.
its not something i will want to do
for the rest of my life.

miss him =/

2007-06-18T21:45:00.000+08:00

say good bye to ur hair~~

i love u, botak!

mwaaaaa~

Innocence

2007-06-18T20:34:00.000+08:00

Connie's Got Talent

this is real sweet. her voice really touched me.

out with F10~

2007-06-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

went out with F10 after sendin dear to tekong.

watch-ed "Man In White"
a very very very lame movie.
lame till i cannt rmb the story.
just know that its super funny. -_-"

play-ed arcade b4 the show.
won 2 hundred plus tickets.
den we change the tickets for
-4 packets of plaster LOL
-2 paper boxes
-2 rulers
just dots lo. XD but we hab fun.

love goin out with F10. =)
p.s. i wanna go arab street!!! u drive. XD

BMTC

2007-06-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

sent dear to tekong this morning.
initially his family members all say will go de.
but in the end,
his daddy gotta go oversea,
his bro gotta stay in camp,
his mummy gotta go polyclinic.

i'm sure he is very disappointed de lars.
poor boy. =((
but the lucky thing is..
he got a super good girlfriend like me. XD
willing to go with him alone.

den i realise i wasn't as weak as i tot i was.
cuz i didn't cry. =)
have the really bu she de feeling,
but also feel excited for him. =X

dear. hope u will take good care of urself there.
and hope by the end of BMT,
u will become super strong and fit. ^^

haizZz

2007-06-06T21:18:00.000+08:00

dear will be leaving for tekong next saturday. =/
me n his family will be sendin him there.
hope i wun cry lars.

but i really dunno how life without him around will be like. =(
no singing.
no lame jokes.
no bickering.
no laughing cuz of his clumsiness.
no talking till we fall asleep.
no people sayang me to sleep.
no kuku dances for me to laugh at.
haiz. there's so many so many.
sure can't get use to it de. =((

dots.

2007-05-26T15:37:00.000+08:00

Going to places i like,
with the wrong people and wrong time
means spoiling my day.

If i got to choose,
staying at home or
going out with some super sian mood people,

i'll rather stay home.

SnowCity

2007-05-19T21:25:00.000+08:00

Brought dear's sister to SnowCity today. Cause it's a promise. ^^
Very fun, but very cold also. =/
-4.7 °C lo. oO

finally......

2007-05-16T18:55:00.001+08:00

after soooo long finally found a full time job.
i know its a little bit slow.
but thats me wad. SLOW. XD

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today's my 3rd day at work.
and i still haven have the chance to take the company bus to work.
reason being,

1st day:
i dunno where to board the bus.

2nd day:
my colleague tell me where. but i cant find them in there. lol

3rd day:
when i finally know exactly where it the picking up point, i was late and the bus didn't wait. =X

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These three days are so boring.
I go there, dunno wad to do, and they are so extremely busy.
The manager teach one simple thing only also need a very long time.
cause every few minutes, she need to get calls,
and attend to colleague of different departments.

So the jobs i getting these few days are mostly
slotting letters into envelope, filings, and stoning.
and cause I'm handling a lot of papers,
i got a lot of paper cuts.
pain and itchy. =/

Life's unfair

2007-04-30T15:11:00.000+08:00

Life's unfair.
Some people gets everything they wanted without having to try hard.
While others tries so hard but get nothing in return.

finally an update!~ ^^

2007-04-28T00:22:00.000+08:00

so long never update my blog. =/
didn't update 'cause my modem spoiled.
so couldn't go online.
ahh. imagine how i could survived so long without internet. XD
must really thanks calvin for his anime,
and junior for his temporary "unstable" modem. XD
thanks goodness, its okie now~~

anyways today a girl cried in my class.
poor thing!
when she's crying, she keep mumbling
"why at home i need to suffer,
den now in school i also need to suffer."
T_T *sadden*
all this started 'cause of one attitude problem girl.
the whole of her group got punished thanks to her. =/

shoppin w couzzie~

2007-03-31T23:11:00.000+08:00

went shoppin with xueli today. =D
first destination, bugis.
bought a "very auntie" bag @ 25 bucks only. hehe.
xueli also wanted the bag. but only left one. =p

after that we went to heeren.
took neoprints. =/ the neoprint machine sux lars!!
and walk around.
so many shops closed down le.
so there's nth much to shop.

and so, we decided to go PS.
to look for dear and also xueli's de dear lar.
wanted to give him surprise de. hehe.
but regan saw me den he go sms him. BOO!

after see-ing our dears, we continued shoppin. XD
xueli bought a slip-on @ DMK.
which i tot looks sooo nice on her lars.
wanted to buy also. cuz it's so cheap.
but dun look nice on me. =/

hehe. kept on suanin xueli today. XD
said she ish still a xiao mei mei.
"haven even 16, pak pool also cannot, watch NC16 movie also cannot."
lolx. hab fun suanin her lars.
cuz her reaction very cute. =X

2007-03-30T19:39:00.000+08:00

current mood:

today's class ish a headache.
there're ppl trying to act funny by using the wire to strangle each other.
ppl who likes to walk around in the lab.
and ppl who just sit down in their group and refuse to do anything.

shouted at the kids for the very 1st time. oO
cuz they were soooo noisy lars.
and partly cuz i'm in a bad mood. =X
however the result came out to be quite pleasing. XD
cuz after i shouted, everyone became super quiet.

4 Peace~

2007-03-27T16:31:00.000+08:00

heh. today's class ish supposed to be the worst class.
but it turn out other way round. ^^
finally, a class with super cute students. =D
and they are soooo well-behaved.

hehe. looking forward to every tuesday's class.

i love sleeping cuz

2007-03-25T02:00:00.000+08:00

sleeping lets u step out of reality, at least for a while.

the no-sense-of-direction girl got lost.

2007-03-23T01:32:00.000+08:00

went LTA for another interview today.
got lost on the way there. so was late. =/
hmmz. regarding the interview ma.
i think all 3 people think i'm not up to the standard for the job ba.
cuz they keep telling me.
"you'll have to handle tough people. do u think u can do it?"

anyways. i got lost on the way back also. =/
asked the guards for directions.
but still got lost.
walked under the scorchin sun for so long lars.
almost died of de-hydration. =X
oh ya. the place was so kuku lars.
cuz i think thats the place people goes to repair their cars and stuffs.
there's alot of mod cars and cars tt kena accident over that area. =/
luckily i found a bus-stop after walking for so long.

stomp the yard!~

2007-03-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

went for an interview with SMP. small and old company. =/
the guy who interviewed me was super straightforward.
and he has got a super qian bian face. XD
so i kinda dun like the company lars.
anyways after the kuku interview. went cine with dear.
watch "Stomp the Yard". love that show. =)

memories..

2007-03-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

was reading the posts of my very 1st blog.
suddenly felt very emo lars.
all these memories..

"still remember pri skool de shi hou.. after skool we would oways mit at ah gong hse.. den go dwn eat 2gether... will oways eat chicken rice n drink ice lemon tea de... haa.. den oways sneak into my uncle rm 2 play his com.."
those were the days..

"missed our shared locker wor.. ;) n recess time.. heex... we r oways e last 2 go up de.. oway takin our own sweet time.. haa.. realli miss ya all wor..."
the shared locker will always be remembered!

"today ish my great grandma BD.. ^^ which oso meanz my blog ish 1yr old le.. keke.. cuz my veri veri 1st post ish abt my great grandma BD too.. lolx... -_-"
hahz. no more celebrating great grandma BD le. althou we weren't that close. but i still miss her.

"cuz of de fits... hospitalised for 10 days.. hahz... made everybody sho worried.. soorrie... n thx 4 makin de time 2 come n visit me wor.. heex... im fine le bahz.. tink wun fits again le bahz... or let's say hope i wun hab fits again nor.. =p hahz.. really scare.. really really scare de fits will relaspe... :'( cuz de doctor say my fits relaspe once... den some parts of my memory would b gone.."
nightmare.. but through this, i got to know actually there are alot of people who cares.

"alzhermer ish a really scary disease nehz... oO i rather kena murdered to kena dat disease lohz.. =P cuz dat disease will let u 4get ur friends n family one by one.. den in de end will even 4get u urself.. T_T so sad.."
i got such funnie thinking back then. rather be murdered. XD

"den we got back the chalet thru window.. XD 2 siao char bor.. + another siao de cici... came out juz to go in thru window.. hee.. hen ke ai ba..."
heex. memories sia. CRES do stupid things together!~

LG rawks!~

2007-03-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

aww. the LG Prada phone is so pretty.

wanted to get a new phone.

so i browsed thru gsmarena to see which phone are nice.

den saw the LG Prada phone and it was sooo pretty lars.

but i dun think i'll be able to afford it. XD

hmmz. talking about phone.

i personally dun like nokia phone.

cuz i tot the designs are all quite similar eh.

as for SE phone.

althou function wise is WOW.

but design wise. all too "man-ly" le.

motorola..

my current phone is the v3.

and it always hang. =/

so i dun think i'll be getting moto's phone again.

hehe. so i think i'll go for LG phone. ^^

i'm not promoting over here lars. =X

but i really like LG phone cuz of the pretty design. =D

althou function wise..

is not that good.

but for me.

a phone is basically for sms-ing and calling and occasionally taking some zilian photos.

if u want better MP camera, den go get a digital camera.

if u want better sound quality, den get an MP3 lo.

so for me i'll prefer a designer phone to a "function" phone. =D

LG rawks. XD

rain rain go away..

2007-03-19T21:10:00.000+08:00

i wanna go suntanning!!
but.
where is my sun?? =/

trying hard..

2007-03-19T00:03:00.000+08:00

Current Mood:

i'm so selfish. =/
i should've trust him more ya.
i'm trying.
but it's so hard.

last day @ telok kurau pri

2007-03-17T21:59:00.000+08:00

best-est class.

Ellie, the prettiest student of the 4 classes. ^^

thanks these girls for the paper cranes. =)

Primary 4 Love.

zulfaqar!~

i lurve this group of boys. super cute.

after class. ^^

last day @ telok kurau pri

2007-03-16T21:24:00.000+08:00

time flies.
so fast ish the last day le.
abit bu she de.
but that's life ya. =/

anyways. today ish quite tiring cuz it's already the last lesson, so it's quite rush.

1st class.
quite sianz. cuz the students was rushing their things and so i got nothing to do.
summore eeson look so fierce.
so nv talk to him so much.
but after they finish everything. the photo-taking session ish quite fun. ^^
and 1 group of girls actually folded some cranes for me.
was very touched lo. T_T

2nd class.
quite boring also. cuz the kids are rushing their work.
didn't have a chance to take a class photo with them. =/
cuz there is not enough time.
but i took a photo of them during class. ^^
oh ya. the girls in this class ish damn cute.
they took out a very small piece of paper, approach me and ask me for signature and phone number.
of cuz i didn't give them my phone number. XD
if not they'll spam me with calls.

3rd class.
same thing. the fun part starts at the photo-taking session. ^^
i like this class's malay boys.
althou they are super duper mischievous.
but they are super cute too!~

4th class.
only 10 plus of them attended de lesson. =/
my fav girl n boy from this class nv come.
so was kinda disappointed.
cuz i wanted to take photo with them de. =((

after the end of everything.
went v8 for dinner with amanda and eeson. =)

moody day

2007-03-15T20:16:00.000+08:00

not feeling very well today, so i'm kinda moody the whole day. =/
during break time, i didn't eat much, cuz i don't have the appetite.
i didn't talk much too, cuz i don't have the mood.

anyway, tml will be the last day of the course. =/
i will miss the kids for sure. =(

1st day of Work

2007-03-10T01:29:00.000+08:00

went all da way to telok kurau primary to work.
so have to wake up at 4am. prepare. travel.
work started at 7.30am.
1st time working so quite stress.
but luckily the 1st class i assist are all good kids. no troubles. ^^
however. the 2nd class isn't as good.
and the 3rd one is worse.
and when i thought the 3rd class is the worst class already.
the 4th is worse than them. T_T

but that's okie. -_-"
they are just a bunch of innocent kids who are super hyper.

2007-03-07T00:30:00.000+08:00

went to the airport in the mornin to sent ahCi off.
after that RES loiter around in the airport and took some pics. ^^
ahEu dun look very happie today. =/
but i never ask much also.

bahz. anyways tml ahEu will be goin back indo.
so only left me n ahBe in Singapore.
ahBe said if noel and jw both busy.
we can go "part tor". XD

to Eu: faster come back so we can learn dance together k? ^^

Prom pics

2007-03-05T16:49:00.000+08:00

LOVE <3

i harts him!~

CRES

always the shortest. =/

@ our fav place.

me N be.

me N ci.

me N eu. BLURRED.

we look so tai tai.

pretty girls. ^^

2007-03-05T13:06:00.000+08:00

M04 Class Photo

CRES n the Guys

with Atlas

with Han Wei.

with Low Wee.

with Tim.

Kuku-ness. lolx.

i look so skeleton in this pic. =/

look at my baiChi face! XD

sorrie but vince's face looks kuku in this pic. =X

ahBe n ahEu love this pic.
look at the xin fu newly wed behind us! XD

New year New skin.

2007-03-05T11:22:00.000+08:00

finally it's done!
but still felt it was abit messy.
argh!!
shall edit it some other time.
mebbie the tagboard shouldn't be there.